"Red Light, Green Light" or "How I Stopped Worrying and Learned to Lovelovelove The Scary"

My LOVElies, 

 

I am so excited, to share with you, that I am going to be in the Boulder/Denver area, for a little over two weeks...starting the end of June. This is big, for me, and the whole thing is a blessing, on so many levels. On the surface, it may seem like a simple trip to Colorado. For me, it represents much more. 

I won't go into a lot of detail, right now...feels like a blog post, sometime this weekend. Let's just say that, in the process of this coming together, I experienced much remembering (all healing, all insight, being the remembering that we are already whole...already that, which we seek). 

The whole thing has been a wonderful opportunity, for me to walk my talk...even more. It has been a wonderful opportunity, for me to observe old patterns, centered around money...to be aware of some really old self-limiting thoughts, without judgment, and to say, "Yes!"...to jump, from a seemingly dizzying height, with no apparent safety of any kind.

Blessing! What a blessing! To realize that, after only forty years, of creating my money situation from lack...I can simply step off the ledge. No need to. Nothing to prove. Knowing myself as perfect and whole, either way. Simply choosing to pretend something else, and why not. With all things being perfect and whole, anything I create is perfect and whole. 

Now you, in your infinite money wisdom, might be thinking (in a gentle, non-judgmental way), "Of course, Patrick. If you had only asked me, I could have told you it is easy. I mean, dude, it is REALLY easy. I thought you knew. Everything else is easy for you. I just assumed this was too." That's part of what makes you so wise. It's the gentleness, and the acceptance. Thank you, for that. 

What a wonderful opportunity, to look into the scary, and lovelovelove it, as my own...as me. My world is truly blessed. I love all of it. The tricky bits, the sticky bits, and the easy-as-pie bits (more and more of those, as the story of Patrick unfolds). My world is blessed, and filled with the most amazing miracles. Daily. Yesterday's was a doozy. 

Yesterday, I went for my daily walk. I thought that I had already made the timid, but true, leap...I had said "Yes!" So I thought. My walk is when it really happened. As I was standing at a curb, waiting to cross, I had the very vivid vision of standing at a ledge. I have had this vision, before, during major life moments...during major moments of remembering.

I was still aware that I was on a curb. I was also aware of myself, standing at a ledge. I have had this vision before, and these kinds of experiences are normal, to me. I've been this way, my whole life. All of sudden, I am standing at this ledge, and I cannot see the bottom...nor can I see the other side. There is only the ledge, and...lots of space. I know, in this moment, that I can jump or play it safe. 

In a nano-second, it all plays out. I can feel all of it...the fears and doubts are there, and now there is something else. I remember it as a simple readiness, a trust, a remembering that I am all that I seek...including money. I can step off the ledge...I can spend the money, without worrying about having enough later...and all will be well. As it always has been. 

So, as the streetlight turns green, I feel the "Yes!", and step off the ledge/curb, and I feel it...all is well, all is well. The rest of the walk was the same way...recognizing the scary stuff and lovinglovingloving it. This, of course, made room for joy and freedom and excitement. For the first time, since the trip became a possibility, I was relaxed and totally excited. Wonderful! Truly, I live in a world of blessing. 

Now, oh wise one, are you ready for the cool reveal? Later, last night...the money, for the trip, ceased to be an issue. I don't mean emotionally/mentally/spiritually. That had already happened...I could already see myself in Boulder...I could already feel the unfolding of new story arcs and new opportunities. I mean, literally, the money ceased to be an issue. I will leave it at that. I think you get my meaning. Blessing on top of blessing. 

This is not so surprising. Our world is as we deem it to be. We can only experience that, which we are ready to experience. Isn't that wonderful? Our world is as we believe it to be. Always! Now, my world is more free to "show me the money" because I am more ready to expect it. Simple. And with only forty years of practice...easy. ;)

I am so stoked, for this. I have been creating this trip, for...about nine months. Interesting, eh? What a blessing! I am so grateful...for all of it. For the apartment. For my wise friends, who were so generous with their wisdom and time. For the blessings and visions and epiphanies. For all of you. for my work/play. For all of it. Thank you! 

And with that, I get to say, "Woohoo! Colorado, here I come!" And as a musical send off, I give you "Rocky Mountain High". I love John Denver, and it is certainly apropos. Blessings, to you all. Thank you, for the opportunity to remember with you. We remember that we are all that we seek. We remember that we are whole and perfect, as we are. We remember ourselves as LOVE, and remember our world as ourselves. 

 

I AM LOVE, and know you as LOVE!